wWell, I think this is turning more into a personal blog than a blog to share the cards I'm making. Perhaps next year I'll have more time to spend on this new hobby! I do have a couple of cards to share, so hopefully I can get those posts up soon...tonight is all about venting :)
I noticed 2 things today. First, I am absolutely pathetically (almost embarrassingly) attached to Troy. I am staying at my sister's house (which is about 3 hours away) tonight because I have my final dress fitting tomorrow. I am going to be gone for less than 24 hours. Yet, when I was leaving today, it felt like I was going to be gone for a week. Pathetic. It made me think of the time when my friend Dusti's mom came up to visit her at college (a 4+ hour drive from her hometown) and ended up leaving that night because it would have been the first night she had ever spent away from Dusti's dad since they had been married and she couldn't handle being away. I thought this was absolutely ridiculous at the time, but now I feel like I'm becoming like that! Ugh, it's disgustingly cheesy...I'm going to blame the feeling on the fact that I haven't been sleeping well, so I was just really tired and I get all emotional when I'm overtired.
Speaking of overtired, the 2nd thing I'd like to point out is that it is almost 1:30am and I can. not. sleep. I tend to stress about things far more than I should (to the point of making myself feel sick). I seem to be doing that right now...I'm realizing that we have just over 2 months until the wedding and have SO much to do. I know it will all get done, I just really was hoping that for once in my life I wouldn't put it all off till the last minute, so I could actually enjoy the end of our engagement instead of being stressed about everything that needs to be done. I can't seem to shut my brain off at night to be able to sleep; I just keep thinking of the gazillion things that I need to do asap. I'm also really behind at work, so that doesn't really help the situation any.
Whew, here's hoping the little vent session will make the stress melt away so I can get some sleep. I have to drive the 3 hours back home tomorrow because we have a volleyball game tomorrow night. The unfortunate thing is that my niece and nephew will be waking up by 5:30am, so I can only get 4 hours of continuous sleep at this point. Hopefully I can fall back asleep when my sister leaves for work at 6:30. I love staying at her house because she always feeds me well and I adore my niece and nephew, but this is definitely not the place to stay if you actually want to sleep. I swear I am bad luck (except not tonight so far!) because almost every time I stay here someone has an ear infection, or something which keeps them up screaming all night long. My sister swears they don't do that when I'm not here.
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oh dear....I think you are going through normal wedding stuff....it can be tough to put things in perspective when you are going through so much! You have to get old like me to figure out how small things are in perspective...look at it this way, at your wedding, what people will remember is how happy you were and how much fun they had, not the little details. That is what matters!
ReplyDeleteand feel free to vent anytime! We have all been in these kinds of situations in our lives and have survived!!